When turmoil wins...

Sunday, June 17, 2018

"I would have taken every possible risk to be with you, I swear."

People say you don't know what you have until it's gone. Truth is, you knew what you had, you just never thought you'd lose it.

The worst tragedy in the world is when two people love each other so much, they just can't make it work.

I saw him, I couldn't differentiate between my heart breaking and my heart fluttering. We had so many plans for the future. Our future.
Aren't we meant to runaway with each other? Not from each other? 

There is honestly no reason to lie to me. I'm too understanding. I get it. I get life. I know that shit happens. Just be straight up with me. Just please, don't hurt me in the process. 
I guess too much is wrong with me. I don't wanna ever feel like I did that day. Indescribable.
Now that I have seen your soul and your body, I won't ever be able to forget about you. And in this way, I know that you have ruined me.

It's not the breakup that hurts the most. It's the post trauma that follows it. It's waking up and checking your phone for the messages that aren't there. It's like starting your whole life again and you have no idea where to begin. That's what hurts the most.

Doing those activities on your own when you've always had someone to do them with. Everything reminds you of them, particular scents, your favourite (or not so now) walks... 

The main reason people struggle with moving on is because deep down we want the person we fell in love with to return and things go back to how they started. It's so hard to accept when people change, or turn out to be the opposite of what we thought they were. 

Maybe it won't work out. But maybe seeing if it does will be the best adventure ever.

I guess there's a story behind every person. There's a reason why they're the way they are. They aren't just like that because they want to be. Something in the past created them, sometimes it's impossible to fix. Stories are different for everyone. 
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